Monday, August 1, 2011

Make me

Make me the rhythm of your breaths,

Make me the music in your voice,

make me something you will call your own,

make me feel again.

There are times,

I close my eyes to pray,

in the bright light of the day,

knowing only you can answer my dreams.

But finding you thus,

is hard as it gets,

so make me the path that leads me to thee..

Make me something you can call by your name,

make me believe again.

I dream of a kiss,

of a touch, of canvas and colors, your shadow,

my hands!

But on this forsaken bed, I lie alone,

I wish, I could make you out of these colorless sheets

I lie on.

So I could do this trick,

make me a magician, or just a wand in your hand,

Make me something you can hold as your own,

Make me love again.

Friday, June 24, 2011

My folded notes

My eyes have seeked for the expresions that

your lips will never dare to convey,

i have raised my gaze,

to meet yours

to find a confused haze.

Have you lately checked your pockets,

for the folded notes I have slipped in,

The stolen moments I have folded carefully,

the night of rain i captured in the vesels of my eyes,

and some verses I wrote on few loveless nights.

Look closely in my eyes

as I lay on the satin sheets of your night.

There are shadows of all the stories

you wanted to live in,

of love, joy, tears nd glory .

There are moments but

that I have dreamt to live in your eyes

but everytime I have raised my gaze,

I have found nothing bt a confused haze.

I am sure this fog will clear once,

in your pockets for my folded notes

you will graze,

I am sure this time we meet

you will have new expression, new gaze

Thursday, June 23, 2011

My journey

True it may have taken ages to cross the mountains

but I still see them every morning from

the window that had long caged me.

I would have walked across the fields

to quench my thirst but

my vision took me farther than I could see.

I have come a full circle,

like the phases of moon,

I glowed in the darkness,

full, radiant and in search of those


I was shinning on your roof top,

under which you sedately sleep,

While i toiled on foot to the 'other' lands,

only this time u had left a bowl of water

to catch my reflection,

but I escaped before you arise,

I shy away from the morning light..

But, it has been so long,

I am back, sitting inside,

looking outside the same infamous window..

and you care less, why your roof top

is devoid of the milky moonlight.

and here on the branch of the tree

it lurks for me..

Ill wash my face with stardust and sleep.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

What you want to know

I have a face, I can show you

I have an emotion, I can let it grow on you

I have a smile, I can sprinkle over

or lets just face the darkness

and you will know everything..

Sun wakes up from its tiring slumber,

I rise from the ashes with the first light

I open my eyes, I open my eyes,

I open my eyes..

and then we stare into the the darkness

and the world has light.

What do you want to know about me?

the slow steps I take every night,

twinkle in the sky,

you can follow me around,

or be amazed at the sight.

The stillness of night, I have braided in my hair

The mystery is the color of my lips,

the eyes that you want to read are

already speaking their story,

there is nothing left to do

for you here..

Let me go,

the sun is leaving,

ill see you on the other side,

or lets just stare into the darkness,

you will know everything.

and there will be light...

you decide!

Saturday, June 18, 2011


Had I not left that day,

I would have known the color of your face,

if I had stayed,

I could have seen,

the tinge of earthen red on your face,

or sky full of blue in your gaze.

Had I not left,

I would have seen how your fingers

grip my hand,

If had stayed I could have seen,

the night

in the black of your eyes,

or maybe some stars lighting your face.

I would have seen you pacing up and down

with anger,

I would have seen you quite in one corner,

or joyous and bird like,

or maybe,

intently starring at my face.

But the moment passed,

for me like years,

gathered in a photocase,

glossed with some smiles,

some wishes and some tired sighs.

And I relaised I had stood there

all that while,

I had never left

the place.

Friday, June 17, 2011

I play

I play with the shadows on my wall,

I play to deal with the stories of the day,

I play to leave behind what growing up I have done,

I play to keep the devil at bay,

I play with the imprints my closed fists

created on my hand,

I play to carve a face,

I play to ask the questions I keep finding answers to,

I play to erase all, any trace.

I play with the stories entangled in my hair,

I play to comb down the fears,

I play for in them I don't miss the night,

I play to tie down the pain.

I play,

with my life,

with my fate,

with the marks on my face.

I love,

with my breaths,

with my desire

every game you want me to play.

Thursday, June 16, 2011


The warmth of the familiar day,

or the mysterious new moon night.

The chirpy birds on every branch,

or on my skin the first touch of the moon light.

I have embraced nothing,

but the love I had for you all this while.

Empty as it may be,

memories crawl in with every sigh.

The silence of the night speaks to me,

in a language I cannot understand,

I hope its just singing a song

on its own and not signaling me to some new bend.

I want to leave you behind,

see the new shores,

see who is me,

see if I can hold on to this smile,

Would you call it love if I crawled back inside

or if I grow wings to soar up high.

Would you call it love if I walk with my heartbeats

or with the reasonable whips of mind.

Am I really lost,

or just scared,

Do I have the answers

or have not asked the questions yet,

A new flower in the garden,

loses a petal with the wind ...

I wish I had no control,

I wish i could control the time.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

For you

Maybe its as simple as a flower

blossoming in the spring

to get me right,

Maybe I am just a one brush stroke

away from the complete portrait

on your canvas.

Maybe I am as easy to get

as a bashful smile

on the wedding night.

Maybe I am as transparent as

a naked bird, flightless,

on a barren land...

why then, I stand watching you go blank

I think sometimes to myself,

i ll blossom with different petals,

rearrange some lines on your canvas,

turn away with your first touch..

or just fly!

but I am me ...

and maybe, just maybe

I ll stay this way.. so you won't miss me.

I am dipping myself,

while you sleep in the lap of misty night,

in the colors of the morning sky...

Ill paint a different morning on your window pane...

warm orange and bright,

Just come out to the light,

you might see me clearly,

in a flower, color or an emotion..

Tuesday, June 7, 2011


Light in the beautiful jar,

I had preserved for so long,

I had in my arms the leafs evergreen

and wrapped around my body,

a blossomy sheet.

I had waited eyes closed,

with my back on the window of the night

I knew I had the universe,

sun, moon, stars inside.

Something changed, not with age,

but I have scars on my face,

Clenching the window side,

at the mystical night now I stare.

The beauty has blessed my eyes,

but inside i lie bare.


hurtful, I am not vacant,


scared, I am just not there.

Saturday, June 4, 2011


I am burning like a lamp

in the longing of ur footsteps

to stop at my door.

I am here not there,

I am in the music,

my mind makes, while it searches for your fragrance

on the sheets of the night,

What are tears, or a smile,

my face only knows wait,

i dunno how that looks,

but you will recognize me

there is yearning in my gaze.

I look calm, I am pale,

I am featherless,

though not fettered, i just sit their and wait,

Even when I am not there,

I am in the music,

my mind creates, while it searches for the threads

of our fate.

When you come, walk slowly,

and pass by me,

When you come, don't touch

or disturb my gaze,

the stillness I will lose,

this color on my face will fade,

I am myself,

waiting for you...

just don't take it away.

Friday, June 3, 2011

I have looked in many eyes,

lying close to the other

I might have loved.

I have admired my eyes,

in their eyes,

or shied away but,

never was I lost.

You are strikingly familiar,

but the stories are so similar, that I hear

from the hush-hush of the streets.

You have lost your color,

but painstakingly,

your essence

still sticks on my hand.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Waiting in a vaccum

Forced to see the other side,

or just attracted by the light,

the sunflower in my heart is

adamant to follow the sunlight.

Waits for the sun every morning,

bids a warm farewell each night,

With a hope in each petal,

it waits for the sunlight.

Wait has its own color,

waiting has its own shade,

but over the time,

the one waiting and waited for

have the same name.

The wait can have its own taste,

which on my tongue melts slowly

the color of the sky,

the game of time,

its a new painting every day.

I have no recollection of what I was waiting for,

I have no recollection of where I came from,

the past that i had so carefully held to my heart,

is now just a dust ball..

I now just wait, I now just ache.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

I will never return again

I have left that corner,

i used to frequent daily,

and the rest of the day,

that corner stayed in my heart.

I have left the sunlit, dreamy path

leading to the corner,

I used to wait by,

and the rest of the day,

the wait for that corner,

lingered in my heart.

I have left that corner far behind,

where, like the promised ray of light

i touched you every day

I have left that corner,

far behind.

I have kept in my heart bitter sweet tastes

of your words,

I have kept in a knot

some beautiful nights of wait.

I have in my smile the brightness of

those lovely days.

I have held tight the rope of the new day

I have left that corner behind

where like on canvas

you left few colors on my face.

On that corner,

one day,

your colors were not enough.

i wiped them of my face,

I stil carry those wiped colors

on my hand though,

but i will never return again.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Don't look at me..

my whispers will reach your


Don't you worry.

Every time your eyes

heave a sigh,

and want to look at me,

ill be there,

i will hold your hand,

I will smile back at you,

i will fold my voice in neat folds

and send it your way.

but hold your breath

don't look at me.

I can't stop thinking about the darkness

in which you hide your face.

Your thoughts keep my room alight

even in the darkest hour of the night.


your presence makes me smile,


don't look at me,

don't look into my eyes.

If you must,

soak my glow,

let me just look away,

my eyes burn

and still cannot light your darkness,

consumed by longing,

they are ablaze.

Then let me pretend,

I am shy, if you insist to look at me,

and let me look away,

if i cannot light your place...

imagining your gaze

troubles me in here...

Don't look,

till I can look into your eyes.